ends

And so, another chapter in my life ends. Another story, another conclusion, another full stop. One more tale to tell, one more memory to remember, one more embarrassing moment never to be recounted.

It’s a year of ends, and one of scary beginnings.

She left last night, left on a jet plane. Good luck at Cambridge love, make me proud.

I have a university interview on Sunday, im scared.

Those were the last set of school exams ill ever give, the last time ill write my name on the smudgy grey Kgs paper, I always wrote my name in huge block letters, for some reason I thought it symbolized knowing something.

That was the last time ill cheat Economics mcq’s from A. And that’s the last time ill nearly get caught. It’s the last time ill scribble on my paper with glee, and stare around when im done early.

That was the last time we’ll celebrate at the beach. With Z’s portable cd player that we used to kick in order to start, and A’s freakishly addictive dip. We won’t  lie down in front of the sea and laugh for hours on end. We won’t dance in the sea and then end up falling and drenching ourselves. We wont drive back listening to Coldplay and singing along to Mr Brightside.

‘Man, im going to miss you guys when I go to college. Who’s going to sing with me?’


Im packing up my stuff, moving is terrifying. Ive lived here all my life, slept in the same bed, messed up the same bathroom. And now, I leave my designated comfort zone, the place where I celebrated my first birthday in my ugly blue frilly dress to enter unknown territory. I came across a whole carton of Archie comics today, and threw them all away. There was a time when I was banned from reading them, my mother told me I would start writing like betty and veronica, reading good literature teaches you how to write.

I would still read them, just behind close doors. I kept one for memories sake.

The rest of my college applications leave soon, im leaving this country next year.

Im leaving my house next week.

He left two days ago.


The brain of the disco has turned into porridge.

The sky is orange and pink, with little specks of gold, glimmering, winking and eventually shying away.