Thursday, June 08, 2006

rain drop blue.

..and sometimes I feel like im so completely in love with you that it physically hurts. And in those few moments, when I allow myself to be a fool and an immature little girl I play with ideas and thoughts and juggle around conversations and smiles. And in that moment, I feel so completely whole and taken care off and needed, like ill always be ok as long as your around. And understood, not fully, but enough for it to be worth recognizing.

..and then rationality and common sense comes back and ruins everything.

..and so you shake your head, smile your wry smile and plunge back into what you’ve begun to recognize as your life.

..and you already feel like you’ve lost something you never really had to begin with.


(this is what reading Kartography at 4-50 in the morning does to you
.)

6 comments:

Phitaymaun said...

Ah yes.
YOu have arrived to that stage.
Well, this is transitional. Everything starts making and insane amount of sense next. And that's much much worse.
Btw, Kartography sucks. Maybe cuz i'm not a karachiite but really enjoyed reading it, but really didn't like it.

M said...

i wana read tht book now! but i guess i'll wait till im in khi. makes the story all da more real...touchable

discopapaya said...

sajjad- hahahah trust me, there are no phases, it could never be that organized. tis my fault, ive made my life into one big blur.

ghaffar- wow? but wow what? i need explanations mister!

mysh- you know, ive read it twice. i think the first time i just was too young and just understood the story. second time around i fell in love with the way she wrote. its not the best book in the world, but jesus christ the way she writes is insane. plus, its karachi, shes an ex-grammarian blah blah- sometimes it feels like shes telling my story- only more eloquently:)

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