Ok
Write something meaningful.
A symphony of words and thoughts
Very vague, yet very deep
Go on,
Write

Oh fuckedy fuckedy fuck

"Im so happy, coz today I found my friends, their in my head."
Lithium
Nirvana

What in the name of holy jesus does that mean? Oh wait, I know.
Look around, see the people who surround you. See the list on your msn contacts, the last 10 people who scrapped you on orkut, the 20 last messages you recieved on you phone.
Who are these people? Do they mean anything? Do you even love them?
If they went away, would you care? Would it leave you missing them because a significant part of your life has gone away?

No.

Is it horrible if you dont trust you friends? If you live in the constant fear that they arnt real people, you dont even know them, they dont know you. Who's fault is that then? Always thinking twice before saying something that you truly believe in, and then regretting it because you never know what they think of what you just said. Trying to see if what you said even made an impact, was she hurt? Regretting it eventually, you wonder, why do i even bother? Whats the point. We will all continue living in this sham of an existence. Ignorance is bliss, and hell, this lack of confrontation, this lack of conflict, it has its plus points for sure. We will consider going on like this till as long as we can hold up the fake smiles and the laughter than tends to drown out the tears. Drifting along, having these phases when you just get sick of each other and you retire to your "happy place". But they are temporary. You just bounce back, again and again and again.
Ill come over, we'll go out, we'll party, lets just keep in as it is. Theres a painfull comfort about it all, youve been doing it for the past two decades, coping mechanisms were formed long ago, and they are still going strong.
Keep on smiling
Keep on laughing

I wont say anything.