Sometimes I wish people could read my mind so that i could stop playing this game. This charade, this flimsy image, as flimsy as those houses that you make out of playing cards.
This isnt me. This is so. not. who i am.

Im not the girl who always wants the best for other people and always thinks of others before herself. Neither am I the one who thrives in the company of others, always wanting to go out, always smiling. I dont want to laugh at every joke, i just do, because i know it means something to you. Im selfish, and susceptible to jealousy and pain. Im not emotionless like you said I was. I love too, i just never tell anyone and that why when you told me you had once loved me i couldnt look you straight in the eye, because i had just realized what a horrible mistake i had made. I had once written in my hgih school diary that " I might wear the costume of a kinght, but im shivering within it." And things havnt changed much since then. Im still the same girl who is so hidden, so sheltered from ever experiencing anything REAL just because im scared of failing, or being rejected.

To the world im someone else, someone happy and always there. The dependable one that doesnt have any issues of here own.

Ha.
You must be kidding me.